I just want to throw up...I just want to scream as loud as I can...I just want to cry till I fall sleep..have you ever had your heart broken..teared apart...well that's exactly how I felt...I hate that I am always exactly sure what's going on or how other people feel about others...and it 100% comes true...I hate it that I am always the bridge to other people's happiness and never to my own..don't take me wrong I love to make everyone specially my friends happy but I am so sick and tired of staying in one spot....why can't I see my life for a change...I wished I had a video camera and would tape my acts...and would look at it and judge...once again...some one I thought I liked betrayed me...well its okay...it seems this is the story of my life nowadays...whatever...damn feelings...damn my dreams....fairy tales don't come true....I read in my horoscope today that my wish will come true...and it did...I am not confused any more...I know....thank you god for clearing this one up as well...but I don't know if I should appreciate you or be sad and angry....you are the judge...please be fair....I am tired...once in my life give me something I emotionally need....